Morning, 28 Mar 17

koiotchka:

morgynleri:

That was exciting.

Rumble-boom, scrabble-thump, “hold on, let me get the hook”, that’s just big enough, wiggle under, jump-jump-under.

Jessamine wiggled under the barrier as soon as I went to move it, because there was just enough room to do so, and now she is hiding under my desk from the thunder. I do not blame her in the least, though I would rather her hide under the bed or under one of the dressers, where there aren’t power cords that I know she’s been willing to chew on in the past.

(I’m keeping an ear out for movement and an eye on her often as I’m willing to lean over to check on her, so there’s little risk of cords being chewed. Especially while the thunder is ongoing and she doesn’t want to move.)

Meanwhile – is anyone interested in a piece of Jupiter Ascending fic that’s a four-times (instead of five, because the fifth one refuses to play nice), centered around Stinger and an OC? Because I have one, and it’s rather self-indulgent, and I’m trying to get past my brain screaming that no one wants to read it. (It may never go past what it currently is, but I needed to write it down, at least. There’s two of the parts that could grow into more, but I don’t know if they will.)

@morgynleri I can make an attempt to read it, I don’t know the fandom and I have trouble reading but I’ll try if it’ll help you *heart*

🙂 I am going to queue it up for 2pm where I leave myself a slot for fic in my queue, and then I’m going to go hide, because just. Brain is being stupid.

(Also, probably having issues because I haven’t posted a whole lot new in months, this is a fandom I haven’t written in before, and just. I started writing fic in a place and time where OCs were all condemned as Mary Sues, because how dare the young new writers write their own characters into other people’s worlds? And never mind that people have been doing that forever.)

hugs you, and passes a Thumpy Stick of Doom Can we slather that anon in honey, tie them up, and leave them at the intersection of the range of a fire-ant nest and a particularly cranky bee colony?

poplitealqueen:

We can and we should.

#have I mentioned recently that your saltiness is glorious? Because it is #nice words #morgynleri #*hugs*

*very big grin, and hugs you back tightly*

I have this problem with people acting like the manifestations of mental illness are the person being a deliberate drama queen, and treating them like shit because of it. And their behavior? Reminded me viscerally of being told to stop being a drama queen when in the middle of a sensory-overload meltdown that I would have dearly liked to have stopped.

So. You vent as you need to, and you do what you need to do to cope with your brain not behaving, and anyone who thinks that you can control your mental illness by willpower and are deliberately being dramatic can go take a long walk out an airlock without a space suit.

theotherguysride:

morgynleri:

elegantmess-southernbelle:

geminoweasley:

something that really bothers me about tumblr is that they try to make slytherin’s the “edgy rebels.”

the slytherin house values/stands for traditionalism. they aren’t going to be getting tattoos or dying their hairs crazy colors. they are going to be polished. wearing heels, wearing satin and lace, have freshly painted nails, wear heels the click against the pavement, wear tailored suits with ties. they are going to have eyeliner so on point and sharp that it could cut through glass.

they aren’t the type to wear combat boots, be edgy, get tattoos, or dye their hair crazy colors. sure, there are exceptions to every rule.. but slytherin’s are the type to have classy wine parties. they are resourceful because they have people skills, they know how to get what they want in a subtle way. they are sneaky and cunning when they want to be. they are polished, and they will follow the rules they want to follow. if they break the rules, it will be quietly. they won’t make a loud statement, they will only make a quiet statement that makes you wonder, “how did that even happen?”

they are a class act. always keeping people on their toes, and always making them think they’re innocent.

they are like a snake. quiet, sneaky, and they appear cold on the outside.. when really they just want to protect their own. they are quiet, but they’re deadly. it is their mascot for a reason. all the houses mascots represent the people in those houses.

gryffindors are a lion because they charge, they are loud when crossed. they make loud statements by breaking rules or creating them. they want justice. they are like a lioness protecting their cubs when their values are crossed. they roar.

hufflepuffs are a badger, because badgers are underestimated. they are fierce creatures and badass, but they look cute on the outside. they will be loyal and fight for what they believe in until the very end.

and ravenclaws are eagles because eagles represent freedom. ravenclaws are all about free expression. eagles also represent wisdom. it shows that you can fly and be free, but you can also see things in the sky others can’t see.

Now I’m seeing @morgynleri in a razor sharp pinstripe three piece, staring down Death Eaters, with me scurrying along behind in a 50’s housewife getup with a meat cleaver in my belt.

*slowly begins to grin*

Can I join in? I’m totes down to be the hufflepuff who has the flamethrower and combat boots. Hufflepuffs can totes be the edgey rebels.

Also I just typoed that to Hugglepuff. Edgey rebel /my ass/.

(I want to design that pinstripe for morgynleri now because dude so BOSS. It’ll have a hat.)

*grin widens* Yes, please! And now I want to actually do a cosplay of this, because dude, random cosplay is fun.

*contemplates arting*

hugs you tightly You’re on my list of people whose fics I need to post a rec for during my mostly-a-hiatus while I’m on the road, if that helps. And it sucks to always be left off rec lists, be they single-fandom, single-pairing, or multiple of one or both. It hurts, and it sucks, and I wish so much you didn’t have to go through it too.

poplitealqueen:

*forgotten fic writers fistbump of solidarity*

Seriously, you’re not on any of them, either? Me, I can understand, but you? Friendo, that’s just fucked up I’m sorry it’s like that.

*head rub* I wasn’t always left off of them. I’ve popped on ones since I started writing regularly for SW, but recently *pbbbt* Nothing. Worst part is, it isn’t like rec lists aren’t being made. I’m just apparently not good enough to appear on ‘em anymore! (Which I know, subjectively, isn’t true, but it’s the first thing I think when I see nearly everyone I know on more than a few, but not even a single mention of me. Well, at least not at first. Afterthought, ahoy!)

Don’t fret about putting me on one if you don’t have the spoons. I’d rather people put me on one when I’m not getting all butthurt about it, but I still appreciate the gesture. You’re on my Rec Lists too when I start making them again.

You’re right, though. It hurts, and it sucks, and – if I may add something – it takes out every bit of urge to update or write out of hardworking writers. It’s hard to find that again by yourself, it really is. *hugs* Have a good night, dude, and I hope the urge to write doesn’t leave you, too.

#morgynleri #important af #we should start a fanclub of forgotten people #i think this is the one thing i hate about reclists #no matter how hard you try someone is gonna get hurt because fandom consumes more than it gives back #or sometimes they don’t consume at all which is worse #*shrug*#thanks for telling me it’s alright to feel bad about this morgyn

*fistbump*

I have only seen something I write on one rec list, and I wasn’t even named as one of the authors, even though I wrote a good deal for it. It made it really hard to even bother writing for that shared AU, to be forgotten even on something I wrote.

And you’re going to get a post in the stuff at least (because while I’m avoiding tumblr because hiatus-of-minimal-internet, I do have internet this week while I’m staying with @lferion, and I’m going to use it to attempt to fill the queue for the next five weeks with cute animals and fic recs and my own stories). Whether I manage more than one depends on how far I get in catching up on reading fic, and at least start reading Of Iron (because Tolkien is one of the fandoms I have been on the fringes of for years, and I like having more fic to read there, too).

(This post is getting long, and getting into self-indulgent and possibly self-centered ranting, so the rest is under a cut.)

It does take a lot of the desire to bother to update out of a writer – and I’d only really gotten that back after AO3 finally gave me feedback*. Kudos, a hit counter, the occasional comment or bookmark. Sometimes I even get a bookmark that’s a rec, or has a comment on it! It’s always nice. And subscribers, to individual stories or series or to me in general.

On tumblr, there are people who regularly like and reblog as they have spoons to do so, and have noticed the fic post (I have gone to a regular time-slot for that because it makes it easier for people to find if they’re looking for it). There are sometimes comments, and I always go read tags if people bother with them.

This is why I make a point of reblogging even the fic I don’t have the spoons to read right away from people I follow, when I see it. Why I make a point of reblogging art, too. It’s why I mentioned on my hiatus post that if mutuals post fic or art, please to @ mention me so it shows up in my email notifications (at least in theory, since several seem to have only shown up in my activity feed lately).

Anyway. A point of reblogging, because it gets to more eyes, because it tells the author/artist that yes, I see you, I see you have made a Thing, and I would like everyone I know looks my direction to see you have made a Thing, and for them to maybe read/view the Thing, and hope that one of them has the spoons to say more happy, squeeful words about the Thing than I might have at the time I see it to reblog it.

*There is a reason that the posts about how comments were all-important in the Good Old LJ Days, and how this and that author are so disappointed by current fandom’s inability to leave a comment piss me off. Because dude, bully for you to have gotten comments on that platform. I got ignored and forgotten and I actually fucking like having kudos/likes now, and a fucking hit counter so I can see that people actually are at least opening the fic.

Even if I still get left behind a lot because I have a sporadic update schedule that’s been made worse by deteriorating mental and physical health, and I tend to eschew the popular pairings even when I write shippy fic, and I don’t tend to go for whatever the popular tropes are at the current moment, and there’s been a distinct dearth of sex in anything I’ve written for years now as I’ve been able to put words to my own attractions and come to terms with my discomfort writing a lot of romance or sex, and preferring friendships and found-family over romantic pair-bonds that result in sex.

*takes a deep breath* Anyway. Yeah.

Also, on a tangential note that some might not think has anything to do with any of this – of my primary deities, one is Persephone, as the Queen of the Underworld, of the unwanted and the forgotten; and another is Hel, Queen of the Dead, of the outcast and the abandoned. The primary aspect of Loki for me is the Mother of Monsters.

Because they are the ones who say to me “it is ok to hurt. It is ok to be upset that everyone and everything passes you by. Being a monster who no one wants out there doesn’t mean that no one loves you. Because if nothing else, you can always come to us. We know what it is like to be on the outside, to be disdained for our choices, to be ignored because we failed to play the game everyone wants us to play.”

And that? I need from somewhere. And I offer it to anyone who needs it. It is ok to be hurt that you are unpopular. It is ok to be different. And if you are hurting and lost and abandoned and forgotten, there is welcome here.

(Treat people like things, and everything changes, because part of being one of the people on the fringes of what mainstream society finds acceptable, at least for me, is protecting, to the best of my ability, those who are likewise from those who come to my attention as those who try to push the people at the fringes down and out and away and call us less than human. I don’t expect this will be a problem from most of my followers, but I figure it is best said anyway.)

I spent most of yesterday offline, but. hugs you tightly I’m always willing to take in a new sibling, if you want another older sibling.

poplitealqueen:

Thank you, dude (I hope you had a nice Tumblr break). I always want more siblings. You’d be a great one, I bet.

#morgynleri #nice words #I was just dwelling on it and getting really upset so it was nice to have this to answer #thanks friendo #I should I say sib?

*hugs you again* I try to be, anyway. 🙂

Sib, sibling, or somewhere there’s a list of gender-neutral words for various family relationships, but I’ve misplaced the link.

(Pretty good break – I’ve spent most of today watching documentaries on YouTube and drinking large quantities of hot tea liberally laced with honey and lime juice because my throat decided to be terribly sore this morning, and it’s helping. Some.)

Good and Bad

deadcatwithaflamethrower:

morgynleri:

Bad thing: My furnace is not working. I cycled the power, it came back on. Fifteen minutes later, and not yet at the set temp on the thermostat, it’s off again.

(Dad has been informed, and will get a hold of the people who need to do things with it. It’s only been nominally fixed for a month and a half, damnit! Until then, I have a couple of space heaters, warm clothes, lots of blankets, and the cat can come sleep in my room until the furnace is fixed properly.)

Good thing:

Thing in the mail today! @deadcatwithaflamethrower‘s Ashleshā!

*kicks feet in the air happily, and cuddles their book*

(And this is me telling people they need to read it! There’s electronic format books if you can’t afford a physical copy! It is an awesome and wonderful and FANTASTIC thing and everyone should read it!)

Man, I hope the furnace is fixed already. Or at least VERY soon. (It is cold here and it is sucky.)

One of the problems was the thermostat apparently has batteries that need changed every year. Which nobody told me. I have changed the batteries, and it’s still not behaving entirely, but it’s at least running. Even if it does seem to have decided that the ideal point to be below the set point to wait to kick over is a full three degrees instead of the one it had been. Bleah. I may have to adjust my set temps higher to cope with that.

the-last-hair-bender
replied to your post “Brain, can we please maybe save the frustration for things actually…”

So, I don’t know if this will help for you but it helped me. Physically yell at your depression and tell it to fuck off. As loudly as you can get away with.

If that doesn’t work, than know that I adore you and if you need to talk I’m around.

Yelling isn’t an option, more for my own anxiety/probable PTSD than because of other people. I do find that saying something, even if all I’m doing is grumbling into the void of the internet, does help, at least a little.

Right now, there is also hot ramen with extra ginger to help encourage whatever is trying to inhabit my respiratory tract to fuck off, plenty of water, and attempts to figure out what Julian is up to in my raised-by-the-Obsidian-Order AU, because so far I’m not entirely sure it’s going to add up to a plot.

(Other than Julian has decided that he’s going to keep two Obsidian Order spies, two Bajoran ex-resistance cell members, one half-Cardassian teenager, and possibly a handful of Starfleet officers. They’re his, they chose him, he’ll keep them, thank you, yes he knows they have jobs to do, they can do them, that’s awesome, they’re still his, and name a god to fail to help you if you hurt them.)

Also, thank you. I’m sitting here grinning because compliments and talking, and it’s an awesome reinforcement that my brain is lying to me a lot. 🙂

koiotchka:

morgynleri:

koiotchka
replied to your post “Morning, 19 Nov 16”

*hugs* We gotta take care od ourselves thr best way we can.

Also i am super interesting in what you are cooking with those ingredients??

godoflaundrybaskets
replied to your post “Morning, 19 Nov 16”

*hugs*

*hugs you both back*

@koiotchka – I’m actually cooking four different things with that list.

Potatoes will get microwaved and then broken up and doused in cream and cheese. (I have to get more shredded cheese before I can do that.)

Rice, barley, canned chicken, mushrooms, frozen peas and carrots went into the rice pot. I was planning to put the broccoli in there as well, but I ran out of room. I’ll cut the broccoli up later today and stick it in a container and freeze it for use later.

Not-yet-thawed chicken (grumble), pineapple, apples, and onion go into the crockpot to make tasty sweet-bright-sharp nommies. Rice will go in there once things are cooked down some, and some of the mushrooms will go in there as well. Shitakes are really good for this, better than the usual white button/porta bellas. Might also add a little soy sauce. Maybe a tiny bit of vinegar for a sweet/sour sort of thing. (Whatever I do with the extra stuff, this will happen tomorrow or late today, because the chicken is still not thawed.)

And the turnips will get sliced, fried, spiced, and doused in cream, butter, and cheese. (Again, need more shredded cheese before I can actually do that.)

I was originally thinking I’d add the turnips to the crockpot, but I think they’ll do better on their own. Turnips have a flavor that on reflection probably wouldn’t go well with the rest of what’s going with the chicken.

THAT ALL SOUNDS SO TASTY I WANT TO MAKE IT ALL 😀
Ayyyy sorry for yelling

I want it all so much

I have found that the biggest boon to making lovely tasty crockpot stuff is the weekly produce box, because it means I don’t have to figure out how to put vegetables and fruit in things, I just have to buy meat and figure out how much of stuff I can fit in the crockpot.

For which, having a home vacuum-sealer makes easier, but isn’t as important as having a large freezer.

And when mom gets home, she wants to attempt to do some marathon cooking to stuff the downstairs freezer with casserole in single-serve sizes, and stew the same. Which will make cooking easier, because I can have assistance, and then all that needs to be done is take it out and stick in the microwave, or, on the road, heat the bag in hot water until the inside are the same temp as the water, and minimize dish cleaning too.

lynati:

morgynleri:

lynati:

Hey Tumblr, is there a way to find untagged items you reblogged from the same person? There’s someone whose art I was reblogging that I now want to unsupport given some of the political views they only just started talking about in their blog, and I’d like to wipe them from the rear view window of my own Tumblr.

[your blog name].tumblr.com/search/[their blog name] maybe?

Or google: [their blog name] site:[your blog name].tumblr.com

Thanks – the first one worked, and I have excised their presence from future perusals of my blog. A small thing, I know, but small things matter. Small things are the building blocks for bigger things.

Yay! And not a problem.

lynati:

morgynleri:

lynati:

morgynleri:

You know they’re my favorite character when I set about causing them all kinds of pain while making sure they and their best beloved don’t actually die.

Maaaaybe I should write out that AU headcanon you inspired and show it to you after all…

*blinks hopefully at you, and grins*

Doooo iiiiit!

I dunno, it’s all kinds of fucked up. Like, it’s basically a horror story for the most part. I may have to write the version in my head just to get it out of there and then do an expurgated version of it to share, and then if you actually want to see the expurgated parts after reading the context they reside in you could request them so I know YOU know what you’d be getting.

*nods* That sounds like a plan to me, and a perfectly good one at that. 🙂