I have no idea about agar agar, but carrageenan causes histamine induced inflammation for me. It all feels fine and dandy and then a half hour later my joints feel like broken glass and my stomach tries to escape my body via my esophagus.
It’s used as a stabilizer in a lot of gluten free type candies and I think is used in a lot of vegan store bought ready made products too as a thickening agent. It’s actually one of the worse things you can feed to someone with a compromised gut as it causes the H1 and H2 receptors in the body to go haywire causing all sorts of fun symptoms, and should be avoided by anyone with an inflammatory disease, especially in those of us extra sensitive to histamines. So it’s super helpful of them to add it into some liquid/gel forms of anti-histamines tablets too…
As a fun aside, it’s also an ingredient in a lot of lubricants…and if you’re wondering if it has an inflammatory response when used externally as well, I’d like to say I feel comfortable saying yes but the truth is it was very uncomfortable. Extremely uncomfortable.
The more you know and are forced to find out when your body tries to eat itself 😀
Writers are dangerous people.
Never take a writer for granted.
They are snipers armed with words.
They know how to aim with sentences, how to fire with paragraphs, and how to immortalize their kills in verse.
i also think this new trend of neo-victorian purity culture in fandom that ridicules people for shipping “bad” ships and attacks writers whose fics have “problematic” content is subtly tied to fandom’s new visibility and conditional mainstream acceptance. because of twitter and the increasing celebrity and showrunner interaction with fans, and because representation politics have somehow melded with respectability politics, there’s this push to “cleanse” ourselves of weird, freaky, disturbing, embarrassing content and present ourselves to the world as just “normal” people who love tv shows and books. because if they see we’re normal and cool, they’ll listen to us right? they’ll respect our demands right? they’ll give us our ships right? nope! instead we’re experiencing a massive dearth in fandom creativity because people are only invested in supporting and uplifting canon ships and canon stories, and instead of looking to ourselves for creativity and representation we’re depending on showrunners who’ve never had our best interests at heart. and honestly eff that. i don’t care about being seen as “normal”. i’m a weirdo! i’m a freak! fandom is weird and freaky and i’m okay with that! in fact, there’s power in that. we don’t need some stamp of approval from showrunners and celebrities, and we certainly don’t need to justify why we write or desire certain content in our fics. be weird! be freaky! be embarrassing! own it! it’s the only thing that’s truly ours.
I feel like there was a gradual migration from “don’t show fanart or porn to actors/writers, that’s gauche” to “never produce any fan content which would, if shown to a creator, make them uncomfortable” as fandom became more accessible to creators
“Acceptance” as a part of emotional healing means “acceptance that this is where you are, and all positive progress will stem from this point in time, you cannot move forward from some imaginary point in the past or future, you can only begin from where you actually are.”
It does not mean “you need to learn to regard the shit situation you were/are in as acceptable.”
That shit that happened/is happening to you? That is merely the reality of what has happened/is happening. Your goal is not to say “it’s okay”, to forgive, to say “this situation is fine”. You NEVER have to say those things if you don’t want to, and you SHOULDN’T say those things if they are not true, it will not make things go any faster.
Your goal is to be able to say “WELP, here’s where we are, in Bullshit City. I guess we start from here.”
Acceptance is a realistic assessment of where you are and a willingness to begin from there. It is a recognition that old patterns, whether positive or negative, cannot or do not have to continue.
And it’s not a 100% all-or-nothing thing. Some days you will be a lot more level than others. Some days you will be really angry or sad about what happened/what you lost/what is happening. That’s okay. But on many and eventually most days you will be a lot more focused on the future, and what you can do. And believe me, that is SUCH a huge relief.
Soooo, if someone is encouraging you to think of “acceptance” solely as “contentment” or “totally at peace”, they are approaching it wrong, in a very not-helpful way.
If you are struggling, maybe it will help you to see that this important recovery stage is not an insultingly tall hurdle you have to jump with a smile on your face and perfect gracefulness.
It is merely an end to foundering because you have found your new solid ground. It will be a quiet, messy thing, and it may sneak up on you, but it will come. And from there, you can go in many different directions. New ones. Ones you never imagined.
If you aren’t there yet, keep going. Fight and scream and cry if you have to. All that shit is necessary shit! Do what you gotta do! Just keep slogging, and try to hold on to the fact that eventually, even if you don’t feel like it, you’ll get there.
The bad stuff will never be “okay”. But YOU can be. YOU can be okay. You WILL be.
Related: Naamah is so lovely and so wise and I trust them
Oh
Yeah… ok so, i should get tested for this b/c im 90% this is me.
Today on ‘I Didn’t Know I Was A Martian’…
What catches my attention on this is that not only does this thing effect sleep schedule, but can fuck with body temperature, and that. That makes me wonder.
There's a Mirror on the Wall 