judayre:

Completely unrelated to the Star Trek things I have said I want to talk about (which I will write at least one of later today – yell at me if I don’t), genetic manipulation.

“For every Julian Bashir, there’s a Khan Noonian Singh waiting to happen.”

Well…. Perhaps.  See, Earth, it’s not the genetic augmentation that creates a Khan.  Julian could never have become like that because he has too much empathy and love for others.  It’s what drove him to become a doctor.  It’s what made him want to help the Jem Hadar, not leave the planet with the Quickening until he’d come up with something that would work.

And that’s not something the augmentation touched.  That’s pure Julian.  Genetic manipulation cannot create character.  That is made through experience and the way people are raised.  The genetic manipulation, Earth, is not the source of the problem.  It’s just something that can enhance a problem that is already in a character or a culture.

Hitler wasn’t genetically enhanced and he killed around 6 million Jews, and many millions of others, including the physically and mentally disabled, homosexuals, Roma, and anyone who didn’t agree with him.

Genghis Khan wasn’t genetically enhanced, and he overran most of Asia.

The US settlers weren’t genetically enhanced and they conducted transoceanic slave trading and slaughtered millions of Native Americans.

Criminalizing genetic enhancement won’t help, because it isn’t the genetic enhancement that’s the problem.  There are always people ready to believe that they are better or know better than everyone else who can find a way to make their beliefs into their lived reality.

(Although if we want to talk about the genetically enhanced who could possibly become a new Khan, we should talk about Jack.  But that can come later.)

^^^^

This! Exactly this! This covers the pile of steaming bullshit about genetic manipulation that the Federation clings to.

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morgynleri:

… I am going to get through this episode. Or at least attempt to. Because right now, I’d love to reach through the screen and strangle Zimmerman.

“I’m sorry it upsets you" (Fuck you, this is a little beyond upset, you little shit. And that’s not at all an apology for deliberately doing exactly the opposite of what Julian requested, and making sure that he was forced to have contact with people he has done his best to cut out of his life for his own well-being.)

“It is urgent. To me.” (Still doesn’t give you the right to override Julian’s own wishes regarding contact with his parents.)

“Like it or not, they’re an important part of your background, and I need to interview them.” (Right. Right. Interviewing someone who has inflicted medical abuse on a child and then continued the emotional abuse to push that child in the direction they want rather than allowing the child to develop at their pace and explore their own path is more important than respecting Julian’s own stated desires about contact with his parents. Fuck you very much.)

…..

Gods, do I want to strangle that little asshat.

Of course he can’t stand to be in the same room with you, when you’re belittling him for making his own choices. When you’re being defensive and angry about him not wanting others to know about the medical abuse you inflicted on him. Just. Fuck you very much.

Oh, Julian.

(Not quite seven when his parents uprooted him from everything he knew, and took him to doctors who took apart all he was and created someone else in his place.)

And Miles is fucking fantastic in this scene, saying that what was done, the “enhancements” didn’t inform personality. Functionally saying that Julian is who he is despite the abuse, not because of it.

(Although the fact of them happening after Julian was already a person would have some effect on his personality. As well as the disappointment of his parents prior to them, and the change in his relationship with them after. The secrets that were constantly kept.)

Julian is trying to be smaller when he’s around his parents, ducking away from them touching him. And oh gods do I want to hit his father with a brick right now.

“We’re a little beyond worrying about your wants, Jules.” (Because of course this is all about what you want, not what Julian wants. Because what Julian wants has never mattered, unless it’s the same thing as what you want. And fucking stop with calling him Jules, because that’s deliberately refusing to use the name he chooses to use in his life.)

And then accusing Julian of behaving like a spoiled child for preferring to face the consequences of his going into Starfleet and going to medical school despite knowing what the medical abuse did to him meant he wasn’t legally allowed to do so (which is an entirely different pile of utter bullshit). For behaving like a responsible adult. *screeches*

Oh. Oh, just because you were hurting that your son didn’t measure up to the average (to the best), it justifies your abuse of him. Justifies the medical abuse, the belittling, the denigration, the gaslighting, the emotional abuse. Justifies the murder of the child you had in order to create a “better” version.

FUCK YOU.

“Good morning, Julian, we were just ignoring your choices again to make a deal behind your back to give you what we want you to have, instead of letting you make your own decisions. Because as your captain, and as the JAG admiral for the local part of the fleet, we believe it’s more important to listen to the opinions and wishes of your abusers than to yours.”

“I’m going to take responsibility for a decision I made when you were seven now because it means I still get what I want, which is for you not to determine your own path.”

And why is it that every episode where we get to see the parental figures who emotionally abused certain central characters interact – and continue their abusive behavior – it always closes with the survivor on a good note with their abuser? Why does Julian suddenly forgive everything that has been done to him because his father is going to prison? Especially when that was part of a deal that was made without his input, and denied his agency to make his own decisions?

*sighs and thumps head on desk a moment* Fuck this shit.

(And the episode finishes with a game of darts and O’Brian trying to figure out how to make darts a suitably closer to even challenge.)

morgynleri:

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morgynleri:

morgynleri:

morgynleri:

morgynleri:

… I am going to get through this episode. Or at least attempt to. Because right now, I’d love to reach through the screen and strangle Zimmerman.

“I’m sorry it upsets you" (Fuck you, this is a little beyond upset, you little shit. And that’s not at all an apology for deliberately doing exactly the opposite of what Julian requested, and making sure that he was forced to have contact with people he has done his best to cut out of his life for his own well-being.)

“It is urgent. To me.” (Still doesn’t give you the right to override Julian’s own wishes regarding contact with his parents.)

“Like it or not, they’re an important part of your background, and I need to interview them.” (Right. Right. Interviewing someone who has inflicted medical abuse on a child and then continued the emotional abuse to push that child in the direction they want rather than allowing the child to develop at their pace and explore their own path is more important than respecting Julian’s own stated desires about contact with his parents. Fuck you very much.)

…..

Gods, do I want to strangle that little asshat.

Of course he can’t stand to be in the same room with you, when you’re belittling him for making his own choices. When you’re being defensive and angry about him not wanting others to know about the medical abuse you inflicted on him. Just. Fuck you very much.

Oh, Julian.

(Not quite seven when his parents uprooted him from everything he knew, and took him to doctors who took apart all he was and created someone else in his place.)

And Miles is fucking fantastic in this scene, saying that what was done, the “enhancements” didn’t inform personality. Functionally saying that Julian is who he is despite the abuse, not because of it.

(Although the fact of them happening after Julian was already a person would have some effect on his personality. As well as the disappointment of his parents prior to them, and the change in his relationship with them after. The secrets that were constantly kept.)

Julian is trying to be smaller when he’s around his parents, ducking away from them touching him. And oh gods do I want to hit his father with a brick right now.

“We’re a little beyond worrying about your wants, Jules.” (Because of course this is all about what you want, not what Julian wants. Because what Julian wants has never mattered, unless it’s the same thing as what you want. And fucking stop with calling him Jules, because that’s deliberately refusing to use the name he chooses to use in his life.)

And then accusing Julian of behaving like a spoiled child for preferring to face the consequences of his going into Starfleet and going to medical school despite knowing what the medical abuse did to him meant he wasn’t legally allowed to do so (which is an entirely different pile of utter bullshit). For behaving like a responsible adult. *screeches*

Oh. Oh, just because you were hurting that your son didn’t measure up to the average (to the best), it justifies your abuse of him. Justifies the medical abuse, the belittling, the denigration, the gaslighting, the emotional abuse. Justifies the murder of the child you had in order to create a “better” version.

FUCK YOU.

“Good morning, Julian, we were just ignoring your choices again to make a deal behind your back to give you what we want you to have, instead of letting you make your own decisions. Because as your captain, and as the JAG admiral for the local part of the fleet, we believe it’s more important to listen to the opinions and wishes of your abusers than to yours.”

“I’m going to take responsibility for a decision I made when you were seven now because it means I still get what I want, which is for you not to determine your own path.”

morgynleri:

morgynleri:

morgynleri:

morgynleri:

morgynleri:

… I am going to get through this episode. Or at least attempt to. Because right now, I’d love to reach through the screen and strangle Zimmerman.

“I’m sorry it upsets you" (Fuck you, this is a little beyond upset, you little shit. And that’s not at all an apology for deliberately doing exactly the opposite of what Julian requested, and making sure that he was forced to have contact with people he has done his best to cut out of his life for his own well-being.)

“It is urgent. To me.” (Still doesn’t give you the right to override Julian’s own wishes regarding contact with his parents.)

“Like it or not, they’re an important part of your background, and I need to interview them.” (Right. Right. Interviewing someone who has inflicted medical abuse on a child and then continued the emotional abuse to push that child in the direction they want rather than allowing the child to develop at their pace and explore their own path is more important than respecting Julian’s own stated desires about contact with his parents. Fuck you very much.)

…..

Gods, do I want to strangle that little asshat.

Of course he can’t stand to be in the same room with you, when you’re belittling him for making his own choices. When you’re being defensive and angry about him not wanting others to know about the medical abuse you inflicted on him. Just. Fuck you very much.

Oh, Julian.

(Not quite seven when his parents uprooted him from everything he knew, and took him to doctors who took apart all he was and created someone else in his place.)

And Miles is fucking fantastic in this scene, saying that what was done, the “enhancements” didn’t inform personality. Functionally saying that Julian is who he is despite the abuse, not because of it.

(Although the fact of them happening after Julian was already a person would have some effect on his personality. As well as the disappointment of his parents prior to them, and the change in his relationship with them after. The secrets that were constantly kept.)

Julian is trying to be smaller when he’s around his parents, ducking away from them touching him. And oh gods do I want to hit his father with a brick right now.

“We’re a little beyond worrying about your wants, Jules.” (Because of course this is all about what you want, not what Julian wants. Because what Julian wants has never mattered, unless it’s the same thing as what you want. And fucking stop with calling him Jules, because that’s deliberately refusing to use the name he chooses to use in his life.)

And then accusing Julian of behaving like a spoiled child for preferring to face the consequences of his going into Starfleet and going to medical school despite knowing what the medical abuse did to him meant he wasn’t legally allowed to do so (which is an entirely different pile of utter bullshit). For behaving like a responsible adult. *screeches*

Oh. Oh, just because you were hurting that your son didn’t measure up to the average (to the best), it justifies your abuse of him. Justifies the medical abuse, the belittling, the denigration, the gaslighting, the emotional abuse. Justifies the murder of the child you had in order to create a “better” version.

FUCK YOU.

“Good morning, Julian, we were just ignoring your choices again to make a deal behind your back to give you what we want you to have, instead of letting you make your own decisions. Because as your captain, and as the JAG admiral for the local part of the fleet, we believe it’s more important to listen to the opinions and wishes of your abusers than to yours.”

morgynleri:

morgynleri:

morgynleri:

morgynleri:

… I am going to get through this episode. Or at least attempt to. Because right now, I’d love to reach through the screen and strangle Zimmerman.

“I’m sorry it upsets you" (Fuck you, this is a little beyond upset, you little shit. And that’s not at all an apology for deliberately doing exactly the opposite of what Julian requested, and making sure that he was forced to have contact with people he has done his best to cut out of his life for his own well-being.)

“It is urgent. To me.” (Still doesn’t give you the right to override Julian’s own wishes regarding contact with his parents.)

“Like it or not, they’re an important part of your background, and I need to interview them.” (Right. Right. Interviewing someone who has inflicted medical abuse on a child and then continued the emotional abuse to push that child in the direction they want rather than allowing the child to develop at their pace and explore their own path is more important than respecting Julian’s own stated desires about contact with his parents. Fuck you very much.)

…..

Gods, do I want to strangle that little asshat.

Of course he can’t stand to be in the same room with you, when you’re belittling him for making his own choices. When you’re being defensive and angry about him not wanting others to know about the medical abuse you inflicted on him. Just. Fuck you very much.

Oh, Julian.

(Not quite seven when his parents uprooted him from everything he knew, and took him to doctors who took apart all he was and created someone else in his place.)

And Miles is fucking fantastic in this scene, saying that what was done, the “enhancements” didn’t inform personality. Functionally saying that Julian is who he is despite the abuse, not because of it.

(Although the fact of them happening after Julian was already a person would have some effect on his personality. As well as the disappointment of his parents prior to them, and the change in his relationship with them after. The secrets that were constantly kept.)

Julian is trying to be smaller when he’s around his parents, ducking away from them touching him. And oh gods do I want to hit his father with a brick right now.

“We’re a little beyond worrying about your wants, Jules.” (Because of course this is all about what you want, not what Julian wants. Because what Julian wants has never mattered, unless it’s the same thing as what you want. And fucking stop with calling him Jules, because that’s deliberately refusing to use the name he chooses to use in his life.)

And then accusing Julian of behaving like a spoiled child for preferring to face the consequences of his going into Starfleet and going to medical school despite knowing what the medical abuse did to him meant he wasn’t legally allowed to do so (which is an entirely different pile of utter bullshit). For behaving like a responsible adult. *screeches*

Oh. Oh, just because you were hurting that your son didn’t measure up to the average (to the best), it justifies your abuse of him. Justifies the medical abuse, the belittling, the denigration, the gaslighting, the emotional abuse. Justifies the murder of the child you had in order to create a “better” version.

FUCK YOU.

morgynleri:

morgynleri:

morgynleri:

… I am going to get through this episode. Or at least attempt to. Because right now, I’d love to reach through the screen and strangle Zimmerman.

“I’m sorry it upsets you" (Fuck you, this is a little beyond upset, you little shit. And that’s not at all an apology for deliberately doing exactly the opposite of what Julian requested, and making sure that he was forced to have contact with people he has done his best to cut out of his life for his own well-being.)

“It is urgent. To me.” (Still doesn’t give you the right to override Julian’s own wishes regarding contact with his parents.)

“Like it or not, they’re an important part of your background, and I need to interview them.” (Right. Right. Interviewing someone who has inflicted medical abuse on a child and then continued the emotional abuse to push that child in the direction they want rather than allowing the child to develop at their pace and explore their own path is more important than respecting Julian’s own stated desires about contact with his parents. Fuck you very much.)

…..

Gods, do I want to strangle that little asshat.

Of course he can’t stand to be in the same room with you, when you’re belittling him for making his own choices. When you’re being defensive and angry about him not wanting others to know about the medical abuse you inflicted on him. Just. Fuck you very much.

Oh, Julian.

(Not quite seven when his parents uprooted him from everything he knew, and took him to doctors who took apart all he was and created someone else in his place.)

And Miles is fucking fantastic in this scene, saying that what was done, the “enhancements” didn’t inform personality. Functionally saying that Julian is who he is despite the abuse, not because of it.

(Although the fact of them happening after Julian was already a person would have some effect on his personality. As well as the disappointment of his parents prior to them, and the change in his relationship with them after. The secrets that were constantly kept.)

Julian is trying to be smaller when he’s around his parents, ducking away from them touching him. And oh gods do I want to hit his father with a brick right now.

“We’re a little beyond worrying about your wants, Jules.” (Because of course this is all about what you want, not what Julian wants. Because what Julian wants has never mattered, unless it’s the same thing as what you want. And fucking stop with calling him Jules, because that’s deliberately refusing to use the name he chooses to use in his life.)

And then accusing Julian of behaving like a spoiled child for preferring to face the consequences of his going into Starfleet and going to medical school despite knowing what the medical abuse did to him meant he wasn’t legally allowed to do so (which is an entirely different pile of utter bullshit). For behaving like a responsible adult. *screeches*

morgynleri:

morgynleri:

… I am going to get through this episode. Or at least attempt to. Because right now, I’d love to reach through the screen and strangle Zimmerman.

“I’m sorry it upsets you" (Fuck you, this is a little beyond upset, you little shit. And that’s not at all an apology for deliberately doing exactly the opposite of what Julian requested, and making sure that he was forced to have contact with people he has done his best to cut out of his life for his own well-being.)

“It is urgent. To me.” (Still doesn’t give you the right to override Julian’s own wishes regarding contact with his parents.)

“Like it or not, they’re an important part of your background, and I need to interview them.” (Right. Right. Interviewing someone who has inflicted medical abuse on a child and then continued the emotional abuse to push that child in the direction they want rather than allowing the child to develop at their pace and explore their own path is more important than respecting Julian’s own stated desires about contact with his parents. Fuck you very much.)

…..

Gods, do I want to strangle that little asshat.

Of course he can’t stand to be in the same room with you, when you’re belittling him for making his own choices. When you’re being defensive and angry about him not wanting others to know about the medical abuse you inflicted on him. Just. Fuck you very much.

Oh, Julian.

(Not quite seven when his parents uprooted him from everything he knew, and took him to doctors who took apart all he was and created someone else in his place.)

And Miles is fucking fantastic in this scene, saying that what was done, the “enhancements” didn’t inform personality. Functionally saying that Julian is who he is despite the abuse, not because of it.

(Although the fact of them happening after Julian was already a person would have some effect on his personality. As well as the disappointment of his parents prior to them, and the change in his relationship with them after. The secrets that were constantly kept.)

morgynleri:

… I am going to get through this episode. Or at least attempt to. Because right now, I’d love to reach through the screen and strangle Zimmerman.

“I’m sorry it upsets you" (Fuck you, this is a little beyond upset, you little shit. And that’s not at all an apology for deliberately doing exactly the opposite of what Julian requested, and making sure that he was forced to have contact with people he has done his best to cut out of his life for his own well-being.)

“It is urgent. To me.” (Still doesn’t give you the right to override Julian’s own wishes regarding contact with his parents.)

“Like it or not, they’re an important part of your background, and I need to interview them.” (Right. Right. Interviewing someone who has inflicted medical abuse on a child and then continued the emotional abuse to push that child in the direction they want rather than allowing the child to develop at their pace and explore their own path is more important than respecting Julian’s own stated desires about contact with his parents. Fuck you very much.)

…..

Gods, do I want to strangle that little asshat.

Of course he can’t stand to be in the same room with you, when you’re belittling him for making his own choices. When you’re being defensive and angry about him not wanting others to know about the medical abuse you inflicted on him. Just. Fuck you very much.

… I am going to get through this episode. Or at least attempt to. Because right now, I’d love to reach through the screen and strangle Zimmerman.

“I’m sorry it upsets you" (Fuck you, this is a little beyond upset, you little shit. And that’s not at all an apology for deliberately doing exactly the opposite of what Julian requested, and making sure that he was forced to have contact with people he has done his best to cut out of his life for his own well-being.)

“It is urgent. To me.” (Still doesn’t give you the right to override Julian’s own wishes regarding contact with his parents.)

“Like it or not, they’re an important part of your background, and I need to interview them.” (Right. Right. Interviewing someone who has inflicted medical abuse on a child and then continued the emotional abuse to push that child in the direction they want rather than allowing the child to develop at their pace and explore their own path is more important than respecting Julian’s own stated desires about contact with his parents. Fuck you very much.)

…..

Gods, do I want to strangle that little asshat.

*eyes the open word processing document*

It’s a NSFW, explicit AU of an AU that is well in the future of what’s already written of the original AU?

Random smut for an AU of Chorus and Solo wherein three formerly dead people – two Sith and a Jedi – are very much not because Reasons, and it involves a naked and strung-up Qui-Gon, and is Obi-Wan/Qui-Gon/Zannah/Maul, in which one or more of them may or may not have much interest in sex, and I have a sneaking suspicion that there is going to be consensual blood and ow, and just.

I may or may not post what I’m writing, but fuck, I’m going to have fun writing it anyway.